Endless Cycle of Deadlines

180906 mon
=s did my presentation 2day... missed out a lot of wat i wanna say =( guess need to do more planning next time... gonna get psy test score on thurs n counselling score on fri. cant wait, but oso v scared... wan to do very very well in sch, but im surrounded by many many talents. gd in a sense to take up the challenge, but omg! its really scary tt everyone's so hardworking, smart n sociable. gd thing they're all nice, friendly n helpful :)
life has become an endless cycle of deadlines. u get the next assignment before u even finish one. i wonder if working life is like tt... will i be stuck in this cycle forever if i dun work hard now? realise tt i havent been in contact w many old frens. life would b almost meaningless.
oh man, i need to get a life. need to love the ppl ard me more. gone is the little girl, the naive child. i'll do something abt it. i will.
feeling better? feeling better? smile: im happy. im blessed. i'll succeed. love thy hmwk. i'll go get some.

1737. be strong.

The Breakup

150906 fri
met up w/ dear ystd on his nite-out =) hadn't much time, just caught the movie w/ e most suitable timing. fortunately. great movie, aint just a comedy. many learning pts from The Breakup

• small misunderstandings escalate
• miscommunication is the cause of most problems
• unhappiness bottled-up willl explode one day
• nv wait too long to let ur partner noe how u're feeling, DIPLOMATICALLY
• wanting to make another person jealous means u still care, but this almost always have the opposite effect of the intended
• as the chinese saying goes, the outsider can see the situation most clearly. true in many cases. however, NOT so in others' r/s. someone not in the r/s will nv get the full picture
• adivce could be harmful
• nv assume, ask & hear each other out
• undertand the diff cultural backgrounds (even family, frens) involved
• it's not what you do, it's abt doing something with ur loved ones
• someone who doesnt appreciate what u do doesnt mean he doesnt appreciate you/your effort

things do get worse b4 they get better. its whether you could hang on there when it gets tough. im gald i did :) it's really sad... finished, just like tt. it's definitely worth more. if gary had taken action sooner, it would have ended totally differently. brooke loved him deeply too, but her tolerance was stretched to e limit, to e pt of no return. feel so sad... its really a pity to see tt something tt was built with so much time n effort n most imptly love was detroyed cause of lack of understanding. so heart-wrenching. oh well, tt's life. too bad i aint the director of e movie. but, i'm the director of my life.

0017. without you, where do i belong?

Money Matters.

020906 sat
stepping into e mth of september scares me. cant believe its alr sept! suddenly reminded tt time waits for no man. where did three-quarter of 2006 go to? hopefully by the end of the yr i can say tt i did not let this yr go to waste.
hehe, feel so power, lol... did my counselling paper at e last min (okie, last 15 hrs =p nth to b proud of -_-''') wrote essay for 9 hrs, went to bed at 5am, woke up at 7am, had breakfast, went sch, den continued for another 4 hrs. cant believe i was quite energetic after tt. e power of e mind. drained. emotionally. physically. mentally. need recharge.
have ya heard of such phrases as "money is e root of all evil"? used to see 'em lots everywhere. didn really think abt it, but guess they're sorta drilled into me. now den i noe its wrong to think tt way (heng im still young). money'll magnify what you r now; money onli serves as a means to ur wishes. if one has inclination to b arrogant or covets after fame & power, being rich will make a person tt way. conversely, if one is kind-hearted, being rich puts tt person in a better position to do more good, to donate much much more to charity.

1228. sacrifice enjoyments. enjoy sacrifices.